Sometimes I just have to remind myself I am not

My heart was crushed to hear of your response.
I will not contact you again.
Now with a new heart, I ask my Father if you know Him.
What is it that really happened when I sent that letter?
I know He had a plan, did I follow it?
Am I never to connect with you again,
Or is the side of my heart that tells me to say a simple, "I'm sorry,"
Something from my Father, and not of a fool?
I shall surrender to Him, and wait for His instruction.
For He is wise.
He knows you, and if we are to meet in heaven alone,
Only He knows.
I will pray,
Into my Father's light from my darkness
That if he has not adopted yet another beautiful child
That you could be next.